

Also, as somebody with an eating disorder, this photo essay (I stayed home today) is interesting. The picture featured is my favourite of the series, but there are some equally interesting ones in there, that I think truly enlighten the problem of eating disorders many models must face (and are despised and misconstrued for--if being skinny was your job, and your means of making money, and what made you happy, and where your friends worked, and what you were known for, and your security, would you not be nervous about it? Understandably it's "what they get themselves into," but you can "get yourself into" accounting or any other occupation as well. All things are choices. Anorexia and bulimia are the words that are focused on, but nervosa is the truly important one that is forgotten all too often when eating disorders are talked about. The same goes for compulsive overeating.) The name, "Models Eating," initially sounds funny. There's a stupid t-shirt that's been in circulation probably since screen t-shirts have been in existence--"Don't Feed The Models." I never "got it." I always assumed it meant models were zoo animals; on a separate plane from normal human beings who consumed food on a normal basis. In retrospect, this was probably characteristic of somebody with an eating disorder. I made the connection a month ago that actually it referred to how models supposedly voluntarily (or, as anybody with an eating disorder will tell you, cannot, or at least involuntarily) restrict food--if you feed them, it will violate them. This was about the time that I was facing a lot of opposition from others in regards to my eating disorder. There is still a misconception--when people talk about Nicole Richie and Mary-Kate Olsen--that people with eating disorders do not eat at all. Eating disorders have been around since there has been body image, and by proxy, civilisation. Records of them date back to at least the eighteenth century, perhaps earlier. This is untrue. But the foods portrayed in this collection of photos--French fries and the like--are foods that are very off-limits to most anorexics. The expressions on their faces--still customarily "vacant"--are populated with the turmoil I feel, and presumably most others with eating disorders, whenever I stare at food. Even the banana (#5) is untouched, something we are "unworthy" of. Those models do not look confident and certain. They, for the most part, look terrified, and are largely alone. I couldn't call it a photo essay, but this collection of photos does an excellent job demonstrating the side of the eating disorder that does not pertain to weight but instead emotions. And I like it.
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